The Process

One of my many shortfalls is laziness.  If there's an easier way, I'll find it, doesn't matter if it's not the "correct" way.  If there's an accessible excuse, I'll employ it.  It's who I am.  I don't say that to be boastful, flippant or even comical.  I say it, because it's the truth.

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Recently, I decided to repaint my bathroom, the white was looking dingy and needed a touch-up.  BUT, I was too lazy to execute the paint-job correctly.  I didn't want to pull out the drop cloth, or clear out the bathroom or tape anything off, or pour the paint into a paint tray...I also couldn't be bothered to use a ladder.  So there I was, one Saturday afternoon with a pint of paint and a paintbrush balancing myself in the bathtub, very slowly painting my bathroom walls. 

I had to go slow, be intentional so as not to drop any paint into the bathtub as the paint brush traveled between the can of paint and the wall.  I also had to go slow because when you don't tape things off, you can't willy nilly slap paint anywhere you want otherwise you'll have a crap ton of clean-up to do later.  It probably took longer than it should have, but I didn't care I did it the way I wanted, under my terms and that's all that mattered to me.

Flipping the script, looking at the process of triathlon, I don't get to train the way I want to, my terms and conditions are not taken into consideration when the plans for race season were structured.  But then again, if left to me, I'd probably only train three times a week, with every one of those sessions being one-hour zone one rides on the trainer late at night because I'm too lazy (and it may or may not be against my convoluted triathlon religion) to work out early in the morning before work.  But what good would that plan do me?

The process is not mine to create, that's what I pay my coach to do.  The process is not mine to manipulate.  Yes, life happens, changes/adjustments have to be made, but "I don't want to do it that way because that way is harder," is unacceptable.  I'm entering the beginning of my second year with my not-so-new coach.   I adore him because his processes have produced physical/visual change.  I adore that he's honest with me and calls my bluff and tells me when I'm slacking and when I need an attitude check.  And I appreciate that he does it all in love and with the number one objective being my improvement as a triathlete and even more so, as a person.  I appreciate that the processes he puts in place for me, have been tested and proven in his own training and racing.  Yup, he trains and races too.  Last year (2017) he completed five full Ironman races.  For those of you keeping count, that's 703 miles of hard core racing over the period of eight months.  

There are times when I want to exploit the process to be a little more "lazy-girl" friendly, but the longer I stick with it, trust it, bow to it, the stronger, faster and more awesome of an endurance athlete I become.  And with those measurable improvements, the less willing I am to exert the energy to protest and demand my way. 

There's always an easier way, but for some things, to get the desired results, I've got to allow the process to bend me, surrending my headstrong will to instead bend it.